Tuesday, October 10, 2006
9:13 AM
Ytdy nite..i was so sian..noone noes how im feeling..cos im keeping my mouth shut tight =) told myself le..anything wan ren..dont chong dong den start another quarrel..bt i realise..de more i ren..de more unhappie i am..and ping once told me..de more u ren..when u explode will more cham..jus hope i wont explode..will jia you de..smile =) I was very sian...nite time..i reach PK..i go tk my ship back frm shaitan port..make me bo bian..need to sail all de way back frm shaitan to argent..and hubbie ok very fast..i give up my chance of fishing and earning more money..i rather lv up =) so i sail all de way back to argent...got any idea how far isit? you can try someday..and im sorry for letting hubbie wait..bt i areadi try to make it afap le..den whn im abt to reach argent..mom came back with my dinner..i nidda go eat...i told hubbie..he says "...i need to wait wait wait..waste all my time waiting.." time wise..u got it more den me now..oni u need to divide it b/w wc..PK..and hmwk..me? i spend more den half de day in sch..doing stupid FYP..when all i did was slack at sch..cos? my stupid supervisor nv help? bks de codes dont work? online dont have? Mr son no drop by? Lab ppl all duno C#? C# new language? hais..oni ting i look forward to my day is at night..when i can PK..one more ting..my partner do nth? oni do de simple layout dat i spend 15 mins can finish all de pages? den i say ok..dont eat..i go silvermine dere wait for u..when i reach i ask him quite a number of times "where are you?" finally he say he inside de mine..i went in..and i lag..i died w/o me knowing..he say "i duno y u keep wanting to come here fight when u not strong enough" at msn jus nw..u say i look dwn on u..when i did not..you nv look dwn on me when u say dat sentence meh? I can fight..i noe i can..dats y i go..who will lke to die? den after my dinner i come back..u say follow u..u bring me go a place gd for training.."yours" training it seems to me..i wasted 400G(can earn back easily) to tp twice to Andes Forest..dere..he bring me to fight tortise..at lv 35..i was tinking "400g just for 2 lv lower den mudmonster?" and lv 35 mobs silver mine also gt..the moleminer or something lidat..bats oni lv 31? den exp lke so little? 200+ exp? u earn 600+ cos i told u b4...different lv party together, the lower one will leech lesser exp..u blieve me? i dont tink u did..owaes say i dont blieve u..u? did u? dat time party together wif u, mei and other ppl go fight kangaroo..my mei super sian..cos? exp leech so little..bt u dont know did u? cos u dont blieve wad i say? u blieve the "GM" or whoever told u? it was so lucky dat i was within 5 lvls range of urs..and i leech de same exp frm u..poor thing for my mei..den u realise i leech low u ask me tp back? ok..i tp..500G is nth..900G easy earn back..chill..den i made my way to silvermine..u say u go toilet..den u say u sell tings..den i was happily fighting away myself =D 907 exp..907..nine hundred and seven exp..u noe hw much isit? normal mob? 300+..it was den..i realise..i lke solo-ing..in silvermine..i can earn much much more den in party..when i told u in party u need to hit different mob..so everyone's exp + together is alot...party hit same mob? if 500exp, each leech 100exp..alot? if 5 ppl hit different mob..500exp each..total will be 2500exp..divide among 5 ppl? each will get 500exp in jus one rd of fighting..get it? its way way more..bt when i walk away to solo? u scold me..u can lv easily..u gt tink for me? i oni gt nite time...i NEED to chiong at nite time..to gain lv..wads my aim? u noe? to be one of da best voyager ard..highest lv is 59..im only at 28! i need to chiong..so i cant waste a single precious time at nite..princess hour is areadi my biggest sacrify le..no more..ytdy waste time walking and tp-ing ard...if we just stayed in silvermine, i would hv lv up dat night..bt u dont blieve i could do it..i show u..by soloing mudmonster w/o a single dmg and earning 907 exp in the process...u blieve me now rite? my bar jus shoot to near half in a short time..2 corals is more den enough to lv up le..and i dont tink it needs an hr? when i say i chiong somemore..later den slp..is cos i dont nid rush in the morning..bt when u say u help me..i very an wei u noe? tink u noe ya? i was reli so tired and sian liao..bt i still wana train..to catch up on those lost exp dat night..u say u help me..i was so happie..willing to 4get everything dat happened dat night..i told u "jus used up my 2 corals..by then, if haven lv up..den nvm..dont nid chiong..i morning play on will do.." its just wad i ask from u? each coral 900 energy..one LB cost 8 energy..one coral can use abt 112 LB..one mob in silvermine needs 5 LB..abt 20+ mobs jiu finish 1 coral le? jus need wad? an hr? an hr half? spare me an hr cnt? i help u get dat pearl frm king clam..i stay up an hr later..to help u..tk..among all de frusration dat others get first? i complain? no i didnt..u willing to spare an hr for me? no u are nt..i areadi kept quiet le..nt wishing to say anyting..together wif the feelings at ytdy night..i all kept inside..tears in my eyes..bt i nv let even one single drop fall dwn..feelings in my heart all push me to near madness? i wana shout..wana cry out loud..wana shout at u..wana blame u..wana shoot everything at u..bt i didnt did i? i compromise by keeping quiet..u saw my effort? at phone..u ask me to say..i dont want..u keep ask me say..i say..u say i cos of game stuff i blame u..so u tell me...shld i say or shld i not in future? i do wad wad also wrong isnt it? i understand u need to train wc..tis coming sat is ur compie...bt u gt time to lv ur herbalist 5 more lv..bt mine? u say u party..and u afk dere..i was tinking gt so gd party let u stand dere leech exp? bt mayb is gt bah..oni i dont know..i was using u as a tool..i didnt ask u or expect u to help me in de first place did i? did i say "laogong, help me play to lv 29 hor by tml morning" did i? i jus say i play myself? you say wad? u help me..end up u didnt? if u cant? tell me..i can stay up an hr later..to play..and slp half an hr later nx morning..can de..anyting i also can compromise..but y u cant and yet u say u help me? my an hr exp gone..tonight i need to chiong an hr more? dont say i use u as a tool..dont say im lke my fren's bf..im not..i didnt expect u to play..didnt expect anything out of u in game..nothing at all..didnt even expect u to party with me..much less help me lv? or buying me stuff? speaking of buying me stuff...you rmb wad u say at start? u wan earn lots of money buy me stuff? when i say i dont nid? money i earn easily..much much more easily den u..altho i didnt want u buy..dont expect u buy..u say u wan buy? end up u saving tis and dat money for ur items? wad if i reli expect u buy? or i put in hopes on wad u say? am i to be disappointed again? is it lucky dat i dont nid u buy anything? nt a single sms at nite le..i areadi kept quiet..cos i noe u bz..and dont want u feel dat smsing me at night is a chore..i force u to do it..or u are forced to do it and u've got no freedom..did i spare a thot for u? did u spare a thot for me? i didnt bring my jacket ytdy..altho i nv want u bring it here..even if u want i also will reject..couldnt u say i bring it to u? instead u say "too bad my card no more money..if not i will bring it to u.." u care abt ur money more den me feeling cold here? or mayb u dont know de cold in blk S NYP? jus a statement of concern and care difficult for u? "darling, i bring jacket to u ok?" so difficult? altho i will reject..but the sweetness and care is dere..the warmth of ur caring ur sentence..im reli at a lost of words to say...jus going off le..spend an hr typing tis stupid blog post...sian..and u said..u wan play when im at sch..ritz..if...you have played in the night..and if.. i morning c my lv increase le..and u play wc when im in sch...cant? at least morning i wont feel disappointment? haiz..no matter now..im gona train Yunie myself le..no more help..no more wadeva..no more help frm u..dont want make u feel stress ya? lke its a chore to help me all dat.. =) jia you on your sealmaster bah..may u be one of da best =) and one of the highest lv..in anchor =) and btw..dere are ppl playing sealmaster liao..top ranking list..and hehs..jus saw lv 62 voyager in rank 4..tink i will nv be able to reach dere ba..hate FYP..hate being a student..9 sealmaster in top 100 ranking list..quite alot eh? 15 voyager..ah..i expected more..bt its areadi quite a competition le =) hehs..nvm..shun qi zi ran..and dont get it wrong..i nv:- expect you to help me lv
- use u as a tool
- expect u buy stuff for me
- expect you to bring jacket for me
- nv flame you
oh ya..pt 5..u say "i dont know hw to charge coral..u come hm charge urself ba"..i say "you bu ke neng play when im in sch..at most let u last an hr(or plus) den no more corals left liao..den u duno hw to charge..also gotto stop there" and u say i flamed you..which i didnt? is u say you dont know hw to charge..den i den say my thots out? now become all my fault..? i shldnt sad? shldnt feel disappointment? i felt all tis u say i use u as a tool? reli duno wad u want frm me...reli felt lke crying..but i ren? cos u dont lke me cry? and its at sch? it hurts reli..ya know? i oni wish u will:
- spare me an hr or(plus)?
- give me a statement of concern and care?
- blieve me?
what i did ytdy?
- i trust you ytdy nite by following you to the spot where you say "best for my training and ownage exp"
- i trust you when you say u will help me play
i did trust you didnt i? =) hope ya know eh? and if u say i dont understand you..or u tink i malign u..or u tink i put words in your mouth..kindly tell me =) or tink i expect too much frm u? tell me too..so tired..going break le....
Will you ever notice me...
